Ponderings and Worries

Well here we are the almost end of this pregnancy.  Well not quite yet, I still have seven-ish weeks left give or take some days.  I will have to say this pregnancy has literally flown by, I feel kind of bad for the little guy, haven't really paid too much attention to him.  Too busy focusing on life and chasing after Roman.  But he reminds me he is around by the constant heartburn, indigestion, excruciating back spasms that make me walk like an orangutan and his dislike of basically everything I eat.  The hunger finally came on around 29/30 weeks.  I have had an insatiable appetite when I'm not grossed out by all that surrounds me.  Confusing right?  So this puts me in the running to gaining even more weight than I gained with Roman, hooray!  On top of that when I go in for my bi-weekly checkups with the doctor they have noticed I have more glucose in my pee test.  So now I get to retake the glucose/diabetes test this week to see if I have developed late stage gestational diabetes.  So over it but my doctor said she doesn't want me pushing out a ten pounder which I would have to agree with her on that, it doesn't sound like a pleasant experience.  Otherwise, we are finally trying to get things ready for the little guy.  Cleared out the office space in the spare bedroom to make room for another nursery.  We have the crib and dresser just need to put them together.  We also still need to paint and decorate the room, but still plenty of time right?  I think so.  Not to mention the other various house projects going on at the moment (finishing the new office space downstairs, refinishing the dining room table/chairs, etc).

So I've been thinking a lot lately when I'm awake after my 5:00 am bathroom break and I worry about raising two kids.  I think everyone has these worries when they go from one kid to two.  I worry about giving them enough attention, not neglecting Roman.  He is so used to being the center of attention and I love him being the center of attention.  Now to share it with another baby.  Juggling a toddler and a baby.  I just don't want Roman to feel left out.  He does really well with little babies so I think he'll be ok, he's very gentle and likes to share.  But I imagine it'll be different once there is a little one in the house 24/7.  I guess we will adjust and it will be ok.  Right?  Any advice from parents with more than one kid and how their transition went would be welcome.

As for Mr. Roman, he is growing every second, he's 19 months (1 1/2 years for those who don't do month counting).  His gibberish is starting to make more sense, he says "let's see", "uh'oh", "all done", and a few other phrases which I can't think of right now.  I guess I should write those down.  He lets us know when he has a dirty diaper so we really need to start potty training but gah I'm so tired I haven't the energy but I need to push through because I am over changing his diaper somedays.  He absolutely loves playing outside especially if he has his soccer ball or another type of ball to throw around.  He gets real clingy sometimes and its impossible to put him down because he locks on around you.  Little man still loves to eat.  He has his breakfast routine down pat, fruit, eggs, toast or waffle and some kind of breakfast meat, usually sausage its his favorite.  Lunch is usually light, a yogurt and fruit or pb&j.  Dinner is whatever is on hand unless I make something I know he won't eat. Then we open a can of beans and rice with broccoli and call it a night.  He did surprisingly well on our trip to Pennsylvania, its a ten hour drive.  But we stopped twice at rest areas and let him run around and he was fine.  He only had one meltdown each way so I would say it was a success :)  His love of music hasn't diminished.  We saw a band on Saturday and he was fascinated by the guitar player.  He likes to give high-fives and blow kisses, but only when he's in the mood.  Other times he's like yah, dude, I don't know what your doing but I don't do that.  I think our bedroom routine is my favorite part of the day.  After his bath, we read a couple books, turn out the light, do our prayer and snuggle for a few minutes.  He's already getting grown on me, before we had to rock him to sleep now after a bit he points at his crib and is like, hey put me in there I want to go to bed.  So I'm trying to treasure these moments because I know it'll pass fast.  So that about brings us up to date.  I'll try to post one more time before baby boy #2 arrives.

Right top picture he's dancing around in the breadcrumbs he spilled all over the floor.

29 weeks with Roman and 33 weeks with #2